Black Bear

There was a black bear on my parent's porch. He looked really nice and was cuddly. He didn't seem mad. I really wanted to pet him but I knew he could be more mean than he looked so I just closed the door.

He wants me dead.

Jamie Johnson hates me. He and his friends were at some event where I was and he scowled at me the whole time. Then one of his friends said something about how our relationsihp was bad and I got defensive and said, "I really really loved Jamie. It breaks my heart that his bitterness that it didn't work out makes him bleieve that it was not real" (or something along those lines) Then everyone was mad at me. Jamie wanted me dead. They all started trying to kill me. I got shot once and almost stabbed a lot. I was crying. I couldn't believe Jamie would want me dead. It made me so sad. I hid form them for a while but they were gaining on me.

Everyone hates Sunday School

I was at a BBQ and a quy walked in. He had long hair and a handlebar mustache. He came up to me and acted like he knew who I was, but I didn't recognize him. He introduced himself as Bryce Long. I repeated "Bryce Long....Bryce Long...sounds familiar" Then Corey, his brother, walked in and I remembered who he was. I leaned over to Lucas and said, "I made out with him" (btw, I'm pretty sure I didn't.) and we all hung out talking. Coreys wife came in and she was stunning. We got to talking about church and Corey and his wife left. I wondered why they would leave when talk got to church so I went to look for them. Then Corey turned into Austin but their wife was the same girl. I saw Austin through an old basement window and climbed through it. I sat on a chair next to him and asked him why they aren't going to church. He said "I dont know. She doesnt want to so I support her" I told him that it is important to go to church so you remember what is important to you. He said "We go to sacrament meeting, but not to anything else. She really HATES Sunday school." We heard the blinds move in the window and his wife was there and stormed away. I lifted myself out of the window and ran after her and told her that when Austin and I were dating I hated Sunday School too. I told her that everyone hates sunday school but we go so that we can not forget what is important. I told her that Austin taught me that and so I am trying to help him remember. I wanted her to remember. It was also a lie. I'm full of lies today.

Hot hands at dinner

I was hanging out with Sara Whitcomb. We could never figure out what we wanted to do and kept appearing in new places but it was boring. We appeared in the car and we were driving down a really hilly road and she asked if I wanted to have dinner with her family. I thought she meant her husband and kids, but then she drove to her parents house.
When dinner started it was just Sara, Me, Rachel, and their mother. Nobody was talking and all we were eating was mashed potatoes, I think. Suddenly they had like 7 brothers and they came in the room one by one and pulled up metal folding chairs. I was sitting there and one of her brothers thought I was in his spot so without saying anything he started pushing my chair until the entire table was full of people and I was sitting in my chair off to the side. It was very confusing and there wasn't enough food for everyone.
I looked up, annoyed that Sara had not defended me when her brother shoved me out of the group but forgot to be mad because I realized everything had changed. Everyone was now sitting on a chair with another chair on top of the table and their food under it. They had their arms over their heads with hands laying flat on the metal chairs on the table and kept flipping their hands over so they could get as much of their hands on the metal chairs as possible.
I asked why they were doing that and they said "How else are we going to eat AND keep our hands cool?" I thought it was such a weird way to keep your hands cool, but they didn't seem to think it was strange so I just sat down.

Bruce Willis

I'm dating Bruce Willis. He lives in a big glass house that looks like very masculine. He tells me to take a shower in his stairwell. On the way up the stairs I see that there is a group of Japanese people having a meeting or something under the stairs, and I worry that they will see me shower. I stand where I think nobody can see me and shower using a super tiny nozzle that pulls out of the wall and I have to spray every inch of me because its so small. As I shower I am thinking that this is the worst place to ever install a shower, as my feet are sliding everywhere and I could easily fall down the wooden stairs. I begin to feel really weird and dry off and go upstairs where Bruce is and see he has stray girl hair all over, that I assume is mine and I take it off his shoulders. I feel even weirder about being here and get a piece of paper and write on it, "Thanks, but no thanks" and I put it on his bed and left. The door to his house was automatic like a department store door.

Second Wife

I found out today that Lucas has a secret second marriage to a girl from our church. I was sickened at the thought of him being with anybody else. I asked him if they had slept together and he said that he had to because they were married. I cried because I thought we had a perfect marriage and the idea that he has had a secret second wife all this time crushed me. I wanted to go back to just us. I didn't know why he needed to marry her, too. I hated it. I didn't want him to get kicked out of the church. I asked if they had kids and thankfully he said they didn't. I realized that he went to bed with me everynight, which means he is a bad wife to her anyway. Makes me wonder why he ever felt he needed to marry someone else.

I saw them holding hands. I wanted to die.



(SO GLAD to wake up from this dream!)

Twins, again.

We went to the doctor today because Lucas and I were fighting. As we were about to leave the Nurse told me that I was pregnant, and was going to do an ultrasound. Suddenly nurse was a doctor and started trying to give me a vaginal ultrasound and I felt violated but excited to see if I really was pregnant. We were looking at the screen and noticed two little beans next to eachother. The doctor told us that we were having identical twins. I couldn't believe it! I was so happy, but Lucas and I fought all the way home.